.....over and over and over and over and over

You know those moments when it feels like the world is standing still and everything feels as though it's all for nothing well lately I feel like I am stuck in one of those moments - trapped and unable to move on with my life.

I keep living inside my own head, not knowing what to do with myself and I don't know why that is, all I know is that it's lonely, and hard. And the truth is I have no idea what I am doing, with my life - with anything really. I feel like I am stuck in a routine that never breaks off, and I find that the moments where I feel any sort of emotion that is not numbness lately has been a feeling of sadness, or anger, or boredom. I am bored with my life, and I can't seem to find a way out of it. Even though I am desperately trying to.

It's such a frustrating feeling. I feel lost and I don't know what to do. I keep thinking about my future and I am scared. Scared of failing. Even if I know that no matter what I do I'll have people around me that love me and would support me in whatever it is that I end up doing. It's like being in  reading slump after you've finished a really amazing book and you feel that no matter what no book will ever overcome what you have just read because it was just that amazing. That is how I feel. My life is in a slump, and I am stuck in a constant repetition. And it sucks.