“In life you are going to make mistakes, you're going to fall down, but it's the getting up that counts. Just like in baseball: you'll get a few hits, but most likely, you'll strike out more than you'll get on base. But don't quit. Find your focus, relax, take a deep breath and give it a good swing."

Long time no see..So, I know it's been a while, aka over two weeks since I've actually written and posted a blogpost, you might be thinking "ummm...it's only been a week", but no my friends, you see, I cheated...or, well, planned a few posts, because I am obsessed with quotes and felt that I couldn't post them all at once, so yeah....

Anyway, lately I've just felt so uninspired, unmotivated, un-everything. Life has just not been to good, which is a ridiculous thing for me to say, because I have a good life. I have good friends, I am getting an education, I have plenty of food and a roof over my head. But I just haven't felt happy lately, and I can't seem t figure out why. I mean it's not always awful, I have moments where I feel genuinely happy, it's just overall it's been a rough time for me. I am behind on my schoolwork, on my reading, because I've been slacking, I have not worked hard at all, which I know I should, but I just haven't, and that's dumb, but it's the way it is.

So, I've decided to turn it all around, I've decided that I am going to change how I feel, no matter what. I just need to remind myself of how much I actually enjoy life, so I just wanted to write this to commit myself to my mission, and also to remind myself that I have a good life, I have good things in my life, I just haven't really seen them lately. I've been looking at them, but I haven't seen them.

I guess that's really what it's all about, isn't it? When you're unhappy you might be looking right at what you have, but you cannot see it clearly. I feel like it's like that with a lot of things in life. So I am reminding myself to look and to see. To notice. This is my goal for the remnants of this year, to be happy, to become happy and stay happy. Because if I stay on this path I won't get anywhere, I'll just keep going in circles and nothing will come out of feeling low, feeling unhappy.